So let's see, I'll start out with the semi-vent part. This week has been pretty bad. I almost started WWIII in my family last weekend over something my aunt posted on my status on facebook. That was the part that got me cuz I'm super careful because I already had family members as friends for a while. Anyway, Monday my cousin got hurt at his job. I'm not super close with him but I still feel bad. I still don't have my license and it's pissing me off because my parents are like never home to see me and they were all excited and stuff when I got my permit. I have a little over a month to go on my permit and my best friend, who got hers like 3 months after me, took her driving test and passed yesterday. I'm all happy for her and stuff but I feel like shit because I'm nowhere near ready for mine even though I'm going to take my test after vacation. Imma fail and then my permit is going to expire. :'( My mom and dad are constantly uptight and defensive. (another reason I'm not asking anyone to take me out driving, they yell at me for little shit) I can't sit in a room with them ever! It's like God you're home act like it!! My sister just doesn't listen to you. She constantly wants to give people hugs and she still does it anyway even if you tell her no. My ex just won't leave me alone and now that his gf broke up with him I swear that he's flirting with me again. I'm just gonna blow up on him one day....

Anyway if you're still reading this, this is my non-venting part of the journal. I'm going on vacation on Thanksgiving. (yay!) Hopefully, I'll have time to type stuff. I've been working on stories I've had in my head for a while now. Oh yeah, I got a laptop finally. It's nice. I can hole up in my room when I don't want to bother with my family. (which is like all the time ) It's not like I hate them but we just aren't getting along. I turned 17 but who frikin cares. Damn, it's hard to keep this part upbeat. I'm sooo depressed. I swear to God that I just go mental this time of the year. Anyway, my crush told me happy birthday and it made my day even though I had like 3 tests/quizzes scheduled. My computer teacher (who loves me because I actually do my work in the time he sets aside for us) gave me a Butterfinger while my ex's birthday was like the week before and he got nothing!! Hahaha! If you're still reading this you deserve a cookie. I command you to go out and buy yourself one now!! Ummmm I think that's it.

till later,
nichole rose

P.S. And the real kicker is, I can write this stuff all down but if I tried to tell someone what I feel, I fail miserably.....